For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. By Marie Bombeck
January was a long month. The start of February has been a bit rocky, too. Though I attempted to have a positive attitude, my impatience made way for negative feelings of self doubt. And the past month and a half has really tested my patience. All this stress was over a job and over an apartment. Between my job interviews, we were searching for a new apartment. All of the apartments we found were out of our price range or too sketchy to be habitable or not pet friendly. I was filling out dozens of job applications, but jobs just weren't calling me back. I began loosing patience and faith. I was in a rut that I couldn't do anything about. I felt like I was doing everything on my end, but the circumstances just wouldn’t change. When our new apartment came through and I found a second part-time job, I sat back and said a prayer of thanks to God. Some of that stress was lifted off my shoulders. I relaxed a moment and then it hit me. I really wasn’t doing everything on my end. I wasn’t giving my life to Jesus. I was trying to control every aspect of my life even when it was out of my control. I wasn't relying on the Lord for self-assurance that these hard times would pass. I did not have faith that the Lord would present me opportunities to provide for my little family; my husband and two little kitties. Sometimes we get caught up in what we want. We want what we want, and we want it now. We have plans on how our lives should go and we just can’t get there fast enough. When our plans go awry, we blame ourselves. We never stop to think that perhaps that is not what God had in His plans for us. But the Lord has plans for our future. If we let Him, He will fuel the desire in our hearts to reach our dreams and our potential. The last month, I have tried to mold my future with my hands. Though, I always will need to work hard for the things I want and the things I dream of achieving. I know that I need to put a little more faith in God that it will all work out.
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