This December I graduated. This December I was thrown full force into the world of being an adult. Christmas and New Year's helped soften the blow. But, as many of my friends are realizing, we are adults now. The fact that I wear office attire more often than I wear sweat pants is probably a sign that carefree days are probably over. But sometimes, I just don’t want to do this adult thing right now.
My friends and I were so excited to graduate. However in the back of my mind, I wondered what I was going to do next. It has only been a month, and the slow, monotonous pace of being an adult is testing my patience. My life seems to be a on a slower pace than the rest of the world. I have days that are just filled with cleaning the apartment. Am I supposed to feel satisfaction in a clean house? Because I am not sure I do. Also, I am uneasy about the structure of adult life. I have been in school since I was four-years-old. Semesters and breaks have been the structure of my life. And now, that just disappears. It’s just work now. No spring breaks. No summer vacation. It's just my life now. Nothing but holidays to divide up the year. When you are a student, it seems to be a defining fact of who you are. Graduation serves as an ultimate goal for at least four years. Now, student is no longer an accurate adjective to describe me. I have to redetermine what my ultimate goal is. And frankly that seems like a lot of work. But then again when I think about it, I remember that I am not doing assignments that I feel are useless aides to my education. I didn’t drop a large sum on textbooks this semester. I come home from work and can feel no guilt watching Netflix because I don’t have an assignment due the next morning. I pick what books I want to read because I have the time. I select the art projects I work on. I have creative freedom. So maybe, between the uncertainty of the future and responsibilities of being an adult, there may be a few perks. I may actually grow to like being an adult.
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